just a quick update as i am off out in a few mins after i have had my soup for my tea...

babcia had had her op - she is now in the high dependency ward at the hospital...very weak obviously. i havnt seen her as you can only go in there for 8 mins at a time...

work is good, went to a seminar at the DCA yesterday - i thought it wasnt very good - ash agreed. when work is fun...work gets done...oh yeah

hey people

for those of you who read my blog, and really do believe in the power of prayer, please can you pray for my nan - her quadruple by-pass is planned for monday - it was that urgent. obviously i am very scared and worried as everyone knows just how much my nan means to me. unfortunately this is making me very snappy and not very nice to be around...

so prayers for my nan most wanted, and i thank you all for your help

xxx

this is my 500th post...but not good news.
my gran has to have an emergency quadruple by-pass - not good. she has been put on the emergency waiting list...we have to wait a few days before we find out the date.
we are all quite anxious
its not nice

but, am doing a taize night at my church..i went to the choir re-hearsal, was the only one under 40! but it was good...love taize and for once didnt cry
x

well hello
something that i have not done for a while i see. january wasnt a good month for me (lots of job-rejections, a lot of zosia hating from myself, a lot of crying, the doctor saying that i was very stressed and very concerned), but february is looking up a bit. I have been working for two weeks now, and settling in ok... have done lots of proof reading fo articles that are to be published by my department, and am hopefully going to be helping to write one about memory (first and second year cognitive psychology needed, and a lot of help with the stats from tania and nigel), and all in all am enjoying it...have time to see my old friends in cds and meet up with jonathan sometimes soon, and my about me is now on the website (www.lsrc.org.uk).

well wednesday...yep it was valentines day...a day that was described to me by somebody the day before on the phone as "social graveyard day", and then went on to say to me "i was counting on you not be going out with anyone!"....well i was very sorry to be letting them down....because indeed i was meeting up with someone...an ex! yep...i met up with dan...it was supposed to be for a quick drink...but it ended up as a five hour chat...dont know what we talked about for so long, but i was doing a lot of laughing, and being shot down for my attempt at a scottish accent...i tried my hardest...but before people tell me that i am being dangerous and silly...nothing happened, just a hug and a kiss on the cheek at the station when we departed...it was a good end to a lovely and enjoyable night! for having had less then 6 hours of sleep that night, you can bet that match sticks were needed at work the next day to keep my eyes open

obviously, i still have loads to go...that goes without saying. i am not stable at the moment - i have so many ups and downs (more downs then up), i had to beg my doctor not to up my dose of ad-s, and on my bed side table my nasty habit apparatus lies. i still get paranoid about lots of things, and i still feel insecure about a lot of things...having not run so much this week i thought i would have out on weight...but i hadnt...i had lost a bit more...so i am getting closer to my target weight, but still dont like the way i look...so hey...lots to work on, but i am trying.

one last little thing..my babcia goes into hospital on monday for an angiogram...prayers for her would be amazing as we are all a bit worried as to what the results of this will be.

take care everyone
xxx

well, week one has been completed. it has been good - they have been quite slow in giving me stuff, as they a keen on having me settle in well. I have been reading old reports that have been published by the department, and project evaluations that I will be working on the next stage on, and yesterday Tania who works in the centre with me asked me to help he co-author a project on memory decay and how this can have an effect on the law. So we shall see. On monday I am going to be alone in the office for some of the day...we are a team on 8...two people are on annual leave, my manager is working from home, one of the senior staff works part-time in Brighton for four days of the week....Tan will probably come in some time during the day - she is cool, and so we might have a chat about the paper we are working on. Yesterday I went back down to CDS to have a nice long chat with some of my old friends from CDS and was laughing a lot...I dont really want to be seen as disruptive! In this next week I should be getting my swipe card - i do have one at the moment, but it doesnt work - luckily Tony the security guard knows me by now to let me in! I have been told by Alexy my line manager I am to order myself a To Do list book, and as I said to Claire, everyone knows that to do lists have to be colour coded, so i am going to get coloured pens too! we were the colouring in twosome in CDS! I have written my about me for the LSRC website, and so hopefully that will be put up soon! hehehehe! Ash is away this week - he has been my font of all knowledge this week...he is away this week - lets see how i cope.

topics of conversation in the office this week: smear tests, venus fly traps, the brain, bob dylan, films, indo-european languages, cbe's, mbe's, obe's, sesame snaps, fitness, phil collins, yoghurts and snowfall

this is how random my office is - i think i will fit in quite well.

so...all in all, am back at the LSC, be it their independent research centre, and its nice. am back with my old friends, meeting a lot of new people and old friends.

first day at work today....did nothing! seriously - read my handover notes, looked at the website (both lsc and lsrc) but already knew them...read the lsrc leaflet (very much like the website), half read the book they have just published....and then they remembered i did some psychology...so read some of the psych journals that they had written...chatted, laughed, joked...even at one point found myself saying out loud "can i do anything to help anyone"...and when i left, finding that my induction wasnt till tomorrow afternoon i said that i will be willing to do all that i could tomorrow morning to help people..i feel that may be needed, as i saw my old boss on the way out and he said he was going to be sending up a lot of work for us! great...doubt that i will be involved in a lot of it..but hey!
team seem very nice - its very small, and they are hardly ever all in which will be quiet, but means that i can pop to see old friends!
not much else to say...back to early nights and early mornings as i like to do my running before work...oh an i wore my sexy new boots today, but they were not as sexy as they could have been as they were very much hidden by my trousers...but they were very comfy
xx

well, its february already - cant believe january has gone so quickly - its does scare me when time flies by like this...i start work tomorrow, am quite scared cos its a new department, but they cant be too harsh on me on my first day...well i hope anyways...we shall see. i will be close to my old department anyways so always have them to comfort me....

todays sermon at church really struck me today, as well as singing one of my most favouritist hymns ever, i nearly shed a tear, but managed to control myself - phew! but it was a real good sermon...i do like the new priest..he is doing a good job.

yesterday arvo i popped over chez jonathan for a chat, and help him do some errands, and we then went to the cinema to see this spannish film which if i was that young girl i would have been crapping my pants always...but the comedy moment, didnt come from the film, it came for the indivudual evidently very desperate for the loo, and fell quite dramatically up the stairs...keeping my laughter sustained was quite hard especially as the people sat next to me were wetting their pants. we then wondered around london which was really nice...up the mall to chez queenie, a bit of covent garden and leicester square, and then back to victoria for home....

so work starts now, will finally earn a bit of money, and i am looking at what to apply to next, as i need to get that sorted quite soon.

xxx