having a headache for nearly four days is not really a good sign is it? and this morning when i got up i had no balance, and nearly fell over in the shower three times....oh its not good...granted this morning it was seven when i got up, and that is never good, but the workshop that i went to was very good, and i did enjoy it.

at the moment i am nearly 300 words into my killer essay that is going to be the most shocking essay ever written - but hey. i just dont really know where i am taking it. at the moment i ahve done an intro saying that if we understand the nature of causality then we will be able to have the ability to predict and control behaviour, and the best way to study casaul relations is through the experimental approach...but then there are some buts that i am going to get onto...but now i am defining cauality, with a bit of philosophy, and then i will be describing the afore mentioned experimental method...and then on who knows! as you can probably tell, as i started it at 5:30pm, i am not going attempt to do this one in one long stint...will sleep on it, and hopefully have it done by friday...then on to the next

but its not a good thing to try and do when you have had a long throbbing headache. but it has to be done sometime. i thought that it could be done to de-hydration but having drunk at least 6 pints of water today, it really cant be...maybe i will just take a stronger pain killer. am having my cv checked on friday, maybe that will help me get a career sorted...and we are all stressing as our exams are in the first three days of exam fortnight, minimising our revision time....looks like i wont be having much of a christmas break this year, as a lot of the time will be spent essay writing/workbook doing/revising! let the fun begin!

take care my loves, missing you all, and i hope that you are enjoying life, or enjoying it as much as you can

xxx

i hate just how long writing the references at the end of an essay takes...it has just taken me an hour and a half - well i did use 20 references...but still that was ridiculous.
my week of not spending any money has started appaulingly. well i had to buy a drink, newspaper, and milk on campus...but the wine gums were not necessary, and nor were the 3 posters for five pounds (although i have been wanting If for ages, and there was a gorgeous sunset poster, and i love sun-rises and sun-sets they are beautiful). and today before my careers interview there was a jewellery sale (everything £1), and i have lost a few ear-rings recently, and so i brought three pairs...so basically have spent a tenner, and its only half way through tuesday...oh zosia.

have had a headache for three days now, that cant be a good sign, and my neck hurts, i reckon the two are connected somehow.

my research for the essay is going a bit better now which is good, i have a few ideas that i can get down on a page, but whether its 2000 words is a different matter - but having said that i will probably end up over the word-limit.
have i got news for you was very funny last night, i only got two questions on uni challenge (9 is my highest), and i had a lovely chat with our benjamin who always makes me laugh no matter how crap i am feeling.

on with the work now i am afraid
but i have an advent calendar (well two, a religious one and a chocolate one - and i know a little taste a life time on the waist - jonathan reminds me enough).

now as i alluded to yesterday, in the evening we walked into town to watch the live battle of the bands final, as Andy and Emily had come through the heats to make the final...and i had a really good time! andy and emily were amazing....they had to do one of their own songs, and a cover of something - they did Semisonic - Secret Smile (good song, infact brilliant song, and amazing cover by them), and their own song was called "wont go away", and they sang it better than on their cd recording of it that i have on my computer. They were brilliant...Unfortunately they didnt make the top three even though they should have....although the winners were absolutely amazing. but they have managed to pick up a few gigs from people who were there which is always good news, and the winners actually asked them to do a gig with them which is fab!

have read a few good articles this morning, but i now have a lecture that is going to happen, and i want to get a paper too.

so long - will put a photo of the performers on later, as i am on campus at the mo

after a hefty day of reading, and popping to the supermarket to avaoid cabin fever, an evening at the local was thought to be a good idea, and this also gave us a chance to meet Gareths girlfriend Laura, and get to know her a bit...as always, i took the camera as these type of trips inevitably lead to some craziness from the cloister lot to occur...and last night it was beer mat flipping, with both Jon and Andy beating the previous record of 17, and managing to flip and catch 20! amazing! now that means, that the pringle in your mouth in one go record also has to be broken again!

anyways, we got a group photo (minus Lee, as we hardly ever see Lee at the moment), and well, the other girl in the photo is the afore mentioned Laura....




So from Right to Left we have:
Dave, Adrian, Me, Jonathan, Andy, Laura and Gareth....and we are the crazy gang, at our lovely local the Johnson Arms!









Have been to church this morning, and i have been reading some more journals today which has been ok. Andy is in the final of battle of the bands tonight, so the quiz is not happening as we are giving him our support instead - thats the nice bunch of people we are.

better get back to reading about the experimental method

take care you crazy kids you

after a hefty day of reading, and popping to the supermarket to avaoid cabin fever, an evening at the local was thought to be a good idea, and this also gave us a chance to meet Gareths girlfriend Laura, and get to know her a bit...as always, i took the camera as these type of trips inevitably lead to some craziness from the cloister lot to occur...and last night it was beer mat flipping, with both Jon and Andy beating the previous record of 17, and managing to flip and catch 20! amazing! now that means, that the pringle in your mouth in one go record also has to be broken again!

anyways, we got a group photo (minus Lee, as we hardly ever see Lee at the moment), and well, the other girl in the photo is the afore mentioned Laura....




So from Right to Left we have:
Dave, Adrian, Me, Jonathan, Andy, Laura and Gareth....and we are the crazy gang, at our lovely local the Johnson Arms!









Have been to church this morning, and i have been reading some more journals today which has been ok. Andy is in the final of battle of the bands tonight, so the quiz is not happening as we are giving him our support instead - thats the nice bunch of people we are.

better get back to reading about the experimental method

take care you crazy kids you

ahhh mini break through

with the help of Mr Hume and Mr Kant, have had a bit of a break thorugh with my essay, throw in a bit of Grounded theory, observation bias, and quasi-experimental method, and the jobs a good'un! well not really, but it might be....thats what i have been doing today anyways, and some of it seems like it may be related to the question, and i interupted jon from his Mr Gramsci essay to see if it made sense to him..it did!

ahh saturday mini-breakthrough day!

might pop round to the johnsons later...see if its got extended hours! but got to be up early for choir tomorrow morning!
have a good saturday eve to you all!
no snow here...and its north of a lot of you...
and i just had to climb out of jon's window as he and andy would not let me out...i had no shoes or socks on, its cold outside!

Hurrah!


“underlying causal mechanisms
hold the key to our understanding of the world”

there we go - the essence of my essay....now i just have to relate this in relation to experimental method in psychology....and this quote - "what counts for causality depends on the context and the interests of the investigator" - but at least i have got why causality is important - yes?

well i said i would block when i had a mini break-through

no proper smile yet...but thats because this is day three, and this is all I have!

ok, so i lied on my blog yesterday....
i went home feeling very sorry for myself at 12:45...it was just so deflating not finding anything. i was mega fed up. so i tried all afternoon, and still didnt find anything either - i just hate this..and it looks like the same is going to happen today, and i just dont know if i can face it today if you know what i mean....
in the evening, i was sat a bit tearful in my bedroom, and so gareth msnd me down and we had a laugh in his bedroom putting up some posters - he couldnt put them up straight, and then we talked about a lot of crap...gareth has the ability to make me laugh so much by winding me up...i dont know how he does it...well i do...he says stuff that he knows is going to wind me up, but yesterday i was saying stuff that wound him up, and i just know to say "Gareth i am not answering any of your silly questions"...
well better continue with my fruitless research...if i find anything i will be sure to blog about it..it will be a break through i assure you...i may even crack a smile you never know

you would not believe how unbelievably deflating it is, to have been researching an essay for over 10 hours (yesterday and today), and to still have found nothing of any relevance. i am trying to do my second philosophy essay, and its a nightmare - it really is. tuesday i did an essay in a day again (still needs tweaking but 2000 words are on a page).

saturday, i did see dan when on the night out, but it wasnt as bad as i thought. i found out the reason he dumped me which is not what i thought it was, which was kindof relieving, but at the same time still gutting. but ellie and i did relationship mathematics and i won! but we chatted for ages, and after he let me rant at him for a bit, we had a laugh and a giggle, and a huge hug which was nice.

anyways, better get back to the research...i have told jon that i am not going home until i have found something, and at this rate i may be here all night!

my evening of just me was much shorter then i thought it would be, as the lads and there mates didnt go out until after 11, and they wouldnt let me leave before they did...but i still manged to watch robin hood even though i was knackered and did some of the thinking that i wanted to do. tonight is the big night out as lots of people have mates up, and there is a birthday in the pgce lot as well...i hope that i dont see dan out tonight as i think that might put a wee bit of a dampner on what i am hoping is going to be a good night, after me week of work. its my weekend of work too, but i am going over notes of the module i dont understand, as the lecturer is taking me for coffee to go over the concepts that i am too thick to get.

anyways, back to validity...oh the joy
oh and if anyone texts me at night i wont reply cos i have my phone on silent, and when i am snug in bed i dont really want to invite people into my room for chats....unless i am already a wake, and at four in the morning, i try to be asleep.

just to say 5/180 credits are now handed in! not much left to go then really is there?
burnt my throat on soup last night - its very horrid for me to swallow, am going to ask the doctor this afternoon what the best thing to do is.
researching for essay as have just spent three hours doing my homework, have a few calculations left to do, and a graph to draw.
me time later, mush needed. one of the lads is away this weekend which is annoying as i chat to him loads, but then the others are here so that will be good.
week of work is nearly done, good cos i am knackered

my week of work has been very productive - i have one day left, and i hope it goes as well. today was the latest that i have ever left campus, at just before 7, but i was wanting to make sure that my essay was as good as i could make it before i give it in

Just chatted with Gareth about a number of things that have happened recently, and basically i have been told i am not allowed to sit in my room miserable and alone anymore...i have to go to his. and he has just given me a treat for tomorrow evening - its the ultimate treat - its the Disney version of Robin Hood to watch when i have my me time tomorrow evening - i just cant wait!

essay in tomorrow, and then doctors too, with my day of work inbetween of course!

well....
after the events of friday night, i worked hard all saturday, (well i watched the second half of the football, whilst getting wound up by Gareth). Anyways, in the evening, i was just going to go to the cinema with Jon, but gareth and adrian invited us to a critical theory flat party, and to Albion House we went. it was a good evening, i did the required amount of mingling, and both gareth and jon found out that i was ticklish.














The last time Gareth invites me to a Jon and i take tickling very seriously
crtical theory party

now albion house is right next door to sainsburys, and on the way out, jon and gareth found a trolley - and students and trolley - you can guess what happened!













Jon and Gareth and trolley Ok, so i pushed the trolley as well

then they found a huge pile of leaves. Gareth, in touch with his nature decided to dive in them, and then tried to get me to...i said no, but it seemed like i had no choice - i was rugby tackled into them (i put up a good fight first), and then was completely smothered in leaves by jon and gareth.

Even had a slug on the face - Gareth oh dear...leaves everywhere....
moved it for me

gareth and i had a long chat whilst in the leaves, and ended up crying to him about all my problems...he and jon were very sweet, and held my hand and hugged me the rest of the eway home

sunday - worked
monday - lecture and worked, and then uni challenge, where i got a surprising number of questions right
today - worked

oh - this week is my week of work, not going out till saturday!
have fun all of you....i am going to cook tea and try and ring our benjamin

so the last few days have just flown past.
thursday i did an essay in a day...its for a months time, so i can tweak it - as it does need tweaking, but the basis of an essay is there! I finished it at 9:30 in the evening. also on that day i raided andys cd collection, and found that he had all three matchbox 20 albums which was fab, cos i copied them onto my compueter, and they are just so good to listen to (ben i suggest them for you).

yesterday i had a group meeting about the essay wrote - everyone is on the same lines which is good, and then i started researching for my next essay - the psychological contract, then i had a panic attack so i told my tutor who is lovely, and she is going to talk to my lecturers about things for me. and then i got books out to do my homework (yep we were set homework)
i was doing said homework in the evening, until jon came up at 9:15 - told me to stop - and we went to spar to buy cider, and sat in flat two (neither jon or my flat - its adrians, gareths daves and anmars flat), and watched great friday night telly! then had a deep and meaningful chat about stuff, and then came up with the genius idea of swapping the kitchen around (only with the stuff we knew belonged to dave, gareth and adrian though). so we swapped their food cupboards, we moved the microwave, hid all the cuttlery, turned the table upside down, put the newspapers in the freezer, along with the collander, put the washing powder on the outside window ledge, and put the washing up liquid in the fridge, and turned the posters upside down, and put frying pans and kettles in the washing machine, and mugs in the grill, and oven! bloody brilliant. havnt seen them yet today, am waiting for my partner in crime before i venture to the flat.

have finished my homework this morning, and have read a really good journal about the psychological contract, whilct listening to fab music!

good luck for unite guys, will be thinking of you
x

yesterday i worked for seven and a half hours in the library - and on the way home i got really wet...it rained so much....and i did more work when i got in, and in the evening i feel asleep whilst reading, to wake up surrounded by all my journals, and finally i crawled into bed, as i had a nine this morning to get to.

anyways, am gutted as my mini disc doesnt appear to be working this minute - i dont know why, and andy doesnt know why either..hmm its an annoyance cos i have to have music when on campus to keep me occupied whilst working...at the moment i am doing a detailed essay plan so i can get writing on whether goal setting theory is a complete theory of work motivation (it isnt is the simple answer, but why....you really dont want to know). having been given three more essays this week, it brings my total to seven...having already done one that six to go! bring it on, an essay a week it looks like, not even thinking about revision!

anyways, i thought that i would put some photos of the people i keep on talking about so you know who they are for future reference:



this is me and andy at a quiz we won! andy got me chocolates when i was down, fixes my computer, cooks good stir fry and plays and sings in a band.







This is jon(athan) and i - jon is my style guru and is the quiz genius, and is very good at looking after me! he also is the man to go to when you need an appropriate quote, and makes me laugh, and came to walk me home when i was dumped - could i ask for anything more?






This is me and Adrian at the post-grad party - adrian is a very good cook, and also often goes Hey in a cool jazz club kindof way - love it!







this is me and Gareth, and teeth. gareth is great, he has longish hair, hes a vegan, uses insence, and has the best irish accent ever. i have good long chats with him - he is second in my styling to jon, and gives bloody good hugs when i need them.






This is me and Dave - Dave was a doctor, and so has answered many of my medical queeries. dave also gives me peppermint tea, sometimes drives me to Sainsburys and gives us all a fatherly figure. we love dave.






i do have girlfriends too i have to say, but these are the people in my block i hang with most often. my flat mates are lovely, but i dont have pictures of them, and i do have some course mates but i will put their photos up soon, so i dont overload this post with photos!

so, now you can put faces to names. now i was going to leave my essay to the weekend, but i do think that i am going to start it tomorrow, so i can start researching the next one at the weekend..no rest!

well, i have been reading non-stop recently. friday evening i did some work, before it was time to go for a quick pint in the Johsons our local 30 seconds away. gareth, adrian, andy, jon and dave were on top form with their jokes today, and after i had tea in falt two, and then said goodnight - it was time for sleep.

saturday i read journal articles for a large proportion of the day,a nd did my washing (it was getting bad), and then went into the country for a drive with dave, jon and gareth, and saw Ken Clarke in Sainsburys! got home and did some more work, before watching the firework display from my room. i had a pants tea of a fried egg and a carrot, and the gareth and jon chose my outfit for the night (big girls). andy had mates up so we were having a night in town - at one point it was nine men and me - proportions zosia likes! but then we bumped into the occ psych girls which was good (well they hunted us down).

sunday - i went to mass which was really nice - it was the international mass! i then read journals all afternoon, and it was the pub quiz in the eveningl - we were one point down from the winners this week, and i am afraid that it was my fault - i made a huge mistake that the lads wont let me forget for a long time. had a good chat with gareth on the way home, and he gave me a huge hug before i went to bed

yesterday, i was up for a study group, started a new really interesting module - which i was really into, then worked in the library till 6:40...and so got home late..but even if i leave capmus at 5 now, it will be dark, so i have to walk home in the dark anyways, but nottingham is not as dangerous as people make it out to be

now, essay research...have a self managed learning group about it this week

hello blog
well have been living in the library again this week. either doing extra reading for modules, or essay research - ibut its ok, cos i am enjoying it/ had a meeting with the girls this morn, as three of us are doing the same essay, so we were bouncing ideas off each other and stuff - there is so much info out there, getting it into 2000 words is tricky! but hey, at least i have some interest in this topic, and i can see how it is relevant to organisations.
saw the lecturer about the other one, and went through my main ideas with him, and he said it was one of tehe best plans that he has heard, so i was pleased with that. have been to counselling and student support this week - outcome varried.

am off to have my lunch, have worked for four hours soli, and 1 and a bit hours before i came to campus - my carrot is crying to be eaten.

have a good weekend, and remember that fireworks are dangerous if not lit by a responsible adult...have fun in ottery you crazy kids you!