tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61521302012-02-05T10:53:50.763-08:00I am PhD Student...I like gin. I am getting over a tough few years, and I talk about Taize a lot.zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comBlogger6621100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-11135561278634055062012-02-05T10:30:00.000-08:002012-02-05T10:53:50.772-08:00

This week, I took a few days leave to go and visit some friends in Norwich. I have to say - it was such a blessed time, and I thank all the people that I spent time with and spoke to - there are three people who deserve a mention...Luke - I have known Luke for about 4 years now, and bar a few occassions where we have met in the UK for special events (most notably his ordination for the

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-50741178345150172822012-01-21T07:36:00.001-08:002012-01-21T08:20:46.527-08:00

"There is one thing I regret about this young lady", said my priest about me to Archbishop Peter Smith yesterday..."she should have been born a man. She would have made an excellent priest if she was a man". I was stunned into silence...Archbishop Peter Smith responded with "well, there is a place for young women in the church as well" (although he didnt elaborate as to what our 'place' is).

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It has been a busy week - I am tired, energy wise and also a little bit spiritually - which is tough as I am now beginning to help others on their spiritual journeys!On Monday was the first time that I began to teach Confirmation to 29 12-15 year olds. I have completed a catechist course, and have been asking many people about confirmation catechesis (I am very lucky to have a very close friend

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-75308956207817000892012-01-08T08:57:00.000-08:002012-01-08T09:00:23.089-08:00

To follow on from last night quickly, my sisten in law to be (my brothers fiance), her dad died last night. Very sad.Prayers for her, her family and my brother would be much appreciated

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Happy New PeopleAs with the previous 4 new years, this new year was spent with the Taize community! I spent new year in Berlin, with people that I knew and a variety of new people - as is the Taize way! Going back to Berlin was interesting...I was there 4 years ago, but on the way out to Berlin that time I was dumped by probably the only person I have ever really loved. So Berlin could have

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-76319627188674368532011-12-21T13:38:00.000-08:002011-12-21T14:04:18.715-08:00

So on the third weekend of advent I took myself onto a young adult retreat led by the Southwark Catholic Youth Service...Southwark being my 'actual' diocese..(East Anglia being my adopted diocese). It was a good weekend. We had some time just to collect on the first evening followed by night prayer on the beach - which incuded a lovely time of silence where I stood by the sea, listening to the

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-41620582870924550052011-12-02T13:50:00.000-08:002011-12-02T14:12:55.786-08:00

A few lovely people have been in touch with me following my previous post asking me if I am OK, and very kindly offering time for chats, ears to listen and shoulders to cry on. This has been lovely - and I am very grateful.Yes, I am ok. I was just fed up with the stigma that mental health problems have and felt that people need a voice, need a chance to realise these problems can exist at any

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I have been umming all day about whether or not to write this, but it has been playing on my mind, so here it goes.yesterday the world heard about the sad death and apparent suicide of Gary Speed - an awful event to occur. Reports then started about sports people developing depression when they finish their careers and how there should be support for them.Very true. But their should be support

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-8870320279168247402011-10-29T11:11:00.000-07:002011-10-29T11:24:54.853-07:00

Today, I had one of those, you are hitting middle age days...I went to the hair-dressers (which I have not done for about 10 months), and she found a lot of grey hair. Now, I have never been one to care about my hair and how it looks (hence the not going to hair dressers a lot), I don't wear make-up - I have only coloured my hair a few times (the last time was about 3 years ago, and I had a

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in the last week one brother has provided my parents a new daughter in law to be, and today, the other brother had provided my parents with a grand-daughter. sadly, the only thing they can expect from me is rent.where shall i get 'lost cause' tatooed on me?dont get me wrong - am over the moon for both my brothers - I cannot wait to meet my niece, and am so chuffed to be getting a sister-in-law,

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so this week, I have had what you could describe as a PhD tantrum. It was all very fun. Being told at 33 months in that the focus of the research will have to change, to have to write some new research questions, and that potentially the hospitals still will not want to see us...my prof said "are you ok with this", i turned slightly, folded my arms, started to cry and said "not really, but I do

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-68692907248730908222011-09-18T13:08:00.000-07:002011-09-18T13:16:48.353-07:00

So, since my last post...what has happened? not much!!I have been doing what analysis I can for my phd with my limited data, and two hospitals really dont want to help me...I have made and written some thank you cards for a few people who have been massive rocks for me in the last few months...one person has literally just texted me to say that card was received, read and made them cry. that

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-59962334255669944162011-08-29T11:43:00.000-07:002011-08-29T13:04:58.485-07:00

So I have had a little time to reflect about Taize 2011, so I will tell you about it...not everything has yet been processed and some moments will stay with me for a long time - because there were some beautiful moments - some because we all laughed, some because we all cried, and some because people came together and helped each other at times when we needed it the most. Regular readers of this

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-29901015667113287092011-08-14T13:27:00.001-07:002011-08-14T13:29:09.936-07:00

have been to Taize...prayed a lot, laughed a lot, sang a lot, cried a lot. will write more about my two weeks soon - just processing some of what happened when out there. it was a moving two weeks...lets just say I had a theme of comfort in sorrow throughout. amazing place, amazing people

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http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-14214915So yesterday the funeral happened...it was an emotionally charged, moving, touching and beautiful ceremony. Tears, laughter, applause, emotion, peace. Bishop Michael - I have met him in Taize every year I have gone...and after last year he sent me a card calling me an Honarary East Anglian...and that I was yesterday seeing my Taize EA friends, and

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Cried all through church today, and at the end, my priest who knew why just said "He is at peace now, in the best place for him" Very true. The tears just came. This is on top of a hard few weeks really, and so it just got a bit too much.I am going to Norwich for the funeral, staying with a Taize EA friend of mine for the night.I have a Taize service tonight - it will be a toughie I think...On

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http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-14118153May he now rest in peaceRequiem aeternam donna eis Domine: et lux perpetua luceat eisHe was a wonderful man, adopted me into the East Anglian Diocesan Taize group for 3 years, and last year spent a lot of time with me in church and prayed for me, and let me experience prayer that I have not experienced before. For that Bishop Michael, I am forever

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-33025237054058462702011-07-09T05:03:00.000-07:002011-07-09T05:10:16.360-07:00

so you have a bit of a tiff with someone one week, and the next week they have found somebody else to make their next victim...wonderful. why the hell do I bother?in other news also received yesterday, Bishop Michael, I was told is gravely ill in hospital. pray for him, the diocese of East Anglia and all those who have been inspired by this amazing man. I have been. Taize this year without

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not happyThat is it. in these last few weeks I have felt myself drifting into glumness. I have not been myself. I dont like it. i just don't like not being happy. I feel like crying all the time. i have lost my appetite and just generally very tired a lot of the time. All in all it is not good. Why? Could be the PhD, or it just could be the fact that I am not where I want to be with my

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-75954675834859959642011-06-04T11:24:00.000-07:002011-06-04T11:43:26.120-07:00

So the last post I wrote was when I was in Maastricht. I am back from there now! And it was an amazingly tiring conference.My first presentation was on a Thursday afternoon - I was also chairing the session. That presentation was the dodgier of the two, as my claims were being made on very few interviews...but I got through it...I had one question from a Professor that I already know. After

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First of all - bloody big congratulations to James and Ella on the news of their newest addition! Am so happy for you both...may your family continue to grow in strength and love, and I am very much looking forward to meeting the new addition! you are all in my prayers.Secondly - am writing this in Maastrich and blogger has gone a little dutch on me! Am here for my first big international work

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At the moment, I am in a confused state of affairs - not knowing what is going with my PhD (prayers for this will be very much appreciated), and not knowing what is going on in relationships (prayers for this also appreciated). In both issues, some clarity will be welcomed with open arms.In other news - birthday with work was greatly celebrated, and I had a lovely night of laughter. I have

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http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-13145354I would just like to see more smiles too!This Bishop is a legend. Pray for him

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-27180393283558293042011-04-23T01:46:00.000-07:002011-04-23T16:10:57.295-07:00

I never really want to have a birthday on Good Friday again!It seemed wrong to celebrate your birthday on the day when you remember the suffering of Christ...So I didnt! In fact, instead I threw myself into all the local services that were going. I attended the Petts Wood Churches Together stations of the cross, our own Good Friday service, and then I held a Taize prayer around the cross in the

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These last few weeks have been very very busy. So, I upgraded which was a tough ordeal...15 minute presentation, what was supposed to be 20 minutes of questions, but was much much longer then that, and then I had to wait outside while the panel decided. They did, and I passed. My professor was happy, he said I did well, and had a way of charming the panel...he doesn't know how I do it, but he

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-42055985101272705062011-03-08T13:32:00.000-08:002011-03-08T13:36:55.286-08:00

for all the praying types - tomorrow I have something called an upgrade - I have to defend my work so far, present it to a panel, answer questions, and then wait to hear what the panel says. This could determine whether people think my PhD is worth it or not, and whether I can continue as I am, or need more focus. So if people can pray that I get through this then I would much appreciate it...i

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Yesterday's daily reading struck a major chord with me. It was a reading that I used to quote to someone who used to be a very good friend of mine, but someone I am no longer in touch with. In actual fact, reading that, and then looking at what has happened since - I could not do anything but cry. and not just a little weep - but a full on snotty cry. "A faithful friend is a sure shelter,

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After having met with a Taize friend for a gin and tonic last night, I realised I had said that I would write about Taize in Rotterdam, but I have not...until now!so on the 27th of december, i make my way to victoria station to meet friends, and unknown people (who had contacted me) to get the eurolines bus to rotterdam. a wine drinking ferry crossing ensued, a moody dutch coach driver, and a

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so, turns out that the person felt a little guilty about not turning up when they had originally said they would, that they turned up completely unannounced outside my office on Friday afternoon about 5 minutes after I had left it. So, I waited for them to catch me up, and they had my attention for the 20 minutes that I had until I got to my old office as I was meeting with my old boss. A

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I have a problem - I seem to be too nice. Last night someone at last felt my wrath. As I said a few posts ago someone is going on mission, but they wanted a catch up before they left. Thursday night they asked...sure I said, I will have a quick drink with work and meet with you then. Time and place arranged, I made a good luck card and to work I went. Just about to leave work drinks, I rang

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I will write about Rotterdam soon I promise, but at first I am asking for your prayers:http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-12105289this man gave me an unbelievable prayer experience in the summer...I have just come back from one amazing journey to find out that he is starting a rather sadder one. Keep Bishop Michael in your prayersxx

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Rotterdam for new year avec the Taize community!! wohoo! will be leaving in a few hours to meet with my dearest Licy and Charis, and potentially many others who will also be on the coach!at 23:00 on the 31st December the prayer vigil for peace will begin, and that is how we will bring in the new year...followed by our festival of nations and a party! I am praying like anything for a host family

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-33275393020274185452010-12-18T14:05:00.000-08:002010-12-18T14:20:29.097-08:00

I always feel that a week before Christmas is a good time to be told by someone that even though we are beyond friendship and have a deep deep bond that they have not had with someone else, they have found someone else who could be perfect marriage material (even though they live in France, and they have actually known them for a long time), and that the man is going on mission abroad as well. I

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-68567202266325582972010-10-23T08:01:00.000-07:002010-10-23T09:14:25.219-07:00

It is time for me to do my Papal visit update, as it has been just over a month, have done some thinking about the event, and yeah, just to give people an account of the event from my perspective.the introduction to the event for me was a few months before the actual event as I had been chosen by my deanery to be the deanery youth co-ordinator for Bromley. So all the people in my position for

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I promise I will write about the Papal visit soon - I have had my debrief with the kids, I just need to do my own personal debrief...but it will be done shortly.I am writing for a few things: - most importantly, I would like to as for prayers for Bishop Michael of EA diocese...his health is not so good, and could do with them. Bishop Michael gave me the best prayer experience this summer in

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-83188898845215640362010-09-20T12:53:00.000-07:002010-09-20T12:56:40.319-07:00

so tired - and will blog more about my weekend soon - but two days, 3 papal homilies, many friends met with, no sleep, lots of talking, lots of singing, lots of laughing, lots of praying - just amazing!and the 7 bromley deanery youth I was in charge of - were just a pleasure! pure delights!loved it!"If you're Catholic and you know it, clap your hands!"

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Dear BloggersI am going to write about my Taize experience for this year...so those who think I write too much about Taize may not want to read this post.This year was the third year in a row that I have been to Taize for two weeks. I love going for more then one week - I find I get so much more out of the experience, and it gives time for my prayer time to develop, and more time to explore the

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quick post - just back from an amazing two weeks in Taize - a little sleep deprive however, so am going to have a nap!will do a Taize update soon...so mcuh happened, that i have to digest it a little first

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am taking a much needed break in my upgrade document writing to do a quick update here. I dont feel too guilty as I have written just over 1,500 words so far...to the dismay of Chris my office mate!So what to update...well on Saturday I met Archbishop Peter, the archbishop of Southwark - as I was at his house at a meeting regarding the papal visit. I am helping out with the young of Bromley

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I had an accident at the weekend...not an I dropped a pint of milk type accident, but more like a I fell down a flight of concrete stairs and bashed my head type accident.the day went something like this. Saturday 5:40 am - alarm goes off, get up, showered and ready to get to London to get a train in Norwich. Get lost in Norwich trying to find the Catholic cathedral - get nice bus driver to

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walking 40 minutes to church and then 40 minutes home again in this heat is a little tortuous, but you do see things in amazing brilliant sunshine.i have had the "you have to do your upgrade/mini viva" conversation with my Prof, so I am going to be doing some hefty writing of a few chapters soon - this could be fun, but isnt really going to be! i have three weeks before Taize to get a chunk

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a few years ago a friend who i have not seen or heard from for a while, but someone who I wonder how he is, and what he is doing, and pray for sent me a poem called "Please hear what I am not saying".I say this because after a conversation with a close friend of mine last week, this poem came to mind. It verbalises my fears, and my insecurities, and how I am. I try to cover such feelings from

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not posted for a while as I have hit a huge low. Went on to my cbt website the other day, both depression and anxiety levels were severly high.i am low yes, prayers would be much appreciated.work is tough, relationships tough, and I am missing a lot of people right now, when a big hug, and an everything will be ok, would be much appreciated.

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"and when you are comforted, as time heals all sorrows, you will be happy to have known me. You will always be my friend. You will laugh with me"i want to laugh...but i cant.thank you to my old boss, for just being there when I needed it today...damn you for making me cry on the train.it has been a day and a half. i have to start liking food again...nearly 3 weeks with reduced appetite and

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-79251183078447392752010-05-29T03:57:00.000-07:002010-05-29T04:12:56.214-07:00

in my last post about all the things that I have done recently that have been keeping me busy, I forgot an important event - in our parish 25 teenagers were confirmed. It was a lovely service...and my word it does make you think about your own confirmation, and the promises that we made, and the wonderful gift of the Spirit that was given to us. When the youth were making their promises, I was

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-82567289404694553702010-05-21T13:17:00.000-07:002010-05-21T13:26:38.300-07:00

busy, busy, busy is what I have beenBusy trying to get work going well, and doing my annual presentation to the department of management showing our progress, development and project ideas. it went ok - i actually managed to get sympathy from the profs as a result of my lack of access (although there has been slight progression in that as well...hopefully the CEO will be on my side).There has

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-33752280131892955652010-05-03T12:28:00.000-07:002010-05-03T12:35:57.402-07:00

work has been pretty hard these last few weeks - i am a little lost with what I am doing, as things are changing all the time...it is all very fluid...i am striving for some stability with this.the last Taize service at my church went really well - my priest said it was the best one yet, and he actually felt that he was in Taize...that made me happy.we have just had a family celebration this

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-10885859899312888822010-04-23T15:06:00.000-07:002010-04-23T15:12:19.394-07:00

I just have to say a stupidly big thank you to work for making my birthday so lovely...just smiled all day! laughed, ate cake, made jokes, and had a never ending stream of gin and tonics all night! i like the 6 1/2 hours working: 6 hours in pub ratio! well done guys....also a huge thanks to Dan who came down to join us as well...what a good crowd came out - never ever have we had so many come

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-11353199912924755122010-04-21T11:36:00.000-07:002010-04-21T11:41:52.950-07:00

it is my last day of being 26 - woop woop!26 has been a good year....an emotional year, a tough year, but a good year. silence, prayer, cbt, phd, singing, laughing...have all happened, as well as crying, tears, fear, anxiety, realisation, but added to that has been rediscovering love, faith, learning how to trust and moments of joy!lets hope 27 is as exciting..I have prayers as to what I want to

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-61392217924563229802010-04-17T11:11:00.000-07:002010-04-17T11:34:01.843-07:00

Happy Easter Season EveryoneI hope that you are all well. I have been struck down by that dreaded viral bug that has been getting to everyone. It started during my conference in Paris, and continued onwards. The worst time was actually Easter weekend. I always find the Triduum so moving, and I was detemined to sing in thw choir for the vigil even with my temperature of 102...that was not

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-23110037550575341232010-03-30T10:31:00.000-07:002010-03-30T11:00:45.352-07:00

today has been my body's way of telling me to stop, so I took a sick day off war, having woken up with a throbbing headache after having been in bed for 10 hours, with a cough still going and a blocked nose, I was not getting out of bed.why...because I have not stopped.The youth confirmation retreat went really well - i hope the kids got a lot out of it - if they didnt, then I certainly did. I

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-14244482068154148752010-03-18T14:02:00.000-07:002010-03-18T14:24:53.766-07:00

what, a post..again...two days, two posts!why?well today, well this evening more correctly I was told good news....what? good news?As you may have gathered, I have been doing a course of CBT, to help with my continual anxiety and depression. At my first session in November, I was rated severe - in fact so severe they thought I should not do the course and do some more severe psychotherapy. But

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-1664695620401727052010-03-17T08:57:00.000-07:002010-03-17T09:13:46.792-07:00

paper was sent to the conference organisers yesterday, after only minor editting from the prof..phone call went like this:prof "hello zofia. I have read your paper. It was actually very good, I was very impressed"me "you sound surprised David"prof "well you were not selling to me, and I know you have been anxious about it, but there was nothing to be anxious about"When meeting him to talk about

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-27132755577440814042010-03-14T05:49:00.000-07:002010-03-14T06:13:02.095-07:00

hello fellow blog readersI hope all of you are wellthis week has been hugely stressful, but i managed it. I had three days to write my first conference paper...one day i had brain freeze as i had been interviewing for data collection that day...so two days, 7,000 words later a shoddy paper was handed into my prof 5 minutes before the deadline...we shall see what he has to say about it.but the

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-57490980475474018952010-03-06T11:41:00.000-08:002010-03-06T11:48:55.927-08:00

data collection for one part of the PhD has started - this is good news. I think the interviews the other day went well, but they are very draining! but should not complain, they are providing me some info...just have to get about 10 more people to agree...the project is being implemented a week later then thought, which gives me an extra week to collect data - hurrah.had a night out with the

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-85677298758480557762010-02-18T13:02:00.000-08:002010-02-18T13:20:29.866-08:00

I had my second to last CBT session this evening - this is the first therapist that I have got on with - as I write down my thought paths, and he looks at them, we talk about them, so he gets how I think - he does not think me stupid - in fact the oposite...it may seem stupid but he understands how I think, and can see the rationality behind it. Tonight, it became very clear that i am a

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-61791393238642678172010-02-12T14:36:00.000-08:002010-02-13T05:40:25.803-08:00

heywell, I have now finished my catechist course - it has been an interesting course where I have learnt a lot...and hope to continue to learn - it has been very encouraging, and made me think a lot about my faith, my prayer and my community. James often talks about being one of the few male parents who go to church....my problem is, in my church there are so many family orientated events, or

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-16339554954980412312010-02-05T11:59:00.001-08:002010-02-05T12:14:21.374-08:00

ok...so I dont know if a counsellor is supposed to take the piss...but then again I was called one of his most synical clients! yesterday I think it was a game of who could be the biggest pedant - it was good though..I think this is the first counsellor I have got on with - because it is not the normal type of counselling - he looks at my thought patterns and how I think...yesterday it was

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-74910014326463819352010-01-29T07:47:00.000-08:002010-01-29T07:55:43.514-08:00

its after weeks like this that I wonder why doing a PhD was a good thing - it has been a very tough week in the world of study, and I can see it getting worse before it gets better. it has been 4 months since I have heard from the Trust (not for the want of trying), and so my project has stalled majorly - that is hard, when after a year all you have is a majorly elaborate literature review.so my

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-14692276661090059622010-01-11T12:45:00.000-08:002010-01-11T13:33:08.342-08:00

Happy New Year EveryoneI wanted to wait a little bit before I wrote this entry, as I didnt want to write something based on adrenaline and excitement - but something a little more composed.As in the past two years, this year I spent the new year with the Taize community, this year in the city of Poznan, Poland. Now, for a long time I was unsure whether I was going to go - what with my anxiety

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-9058626899130192862009-12-13T13:37:00.000-08:002009-12-13T13:38:54.399-08:00

happy birthday mum!you have looked after me, guided me, and loved me, and I love you too.I hope we have given you a good meal tonight!

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-47466805692726120322009-12-12T05:28:00.000-08:002009-12-12T05:34:53.689-08:00

well, i have started an on-line guided cbt course - i have faced up to the fact that I am not well - so next step is trying to deal with it! i have had two sessions, and doing a module about challenging negative thoughts...the last thing i need is someone taking the piss out of me for going to counselling - which is exactly what my father did to me last night - and ouch that hurt. this week had

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-11409197768407485072009-11-27T11:54:00.000-08:002009-11-27T12:01:09.904-08:00

Am mega emotional at the moment...I know why as well, and it sucks, as I should be better then this now. This week I heard good news for many people - and of course I am over the moon for them...but a really horrible jealous part of me wishes it was me, and I want to cry. i feel so stupid for feeling like this. but it is how I feel...especially when I have found someone that I like but am far

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-32010981423210032462009-11-23T13:06:00.000-08:002009-11-23T13:21:56.084-08:00

never has a week and a half outside of Taize been so consumed with Taize activity...it all went something like this...10 days ago the coach company pulled the coach that was going to take us to the European meeting in Poznan. Frere Paolo asked myself and Katie what should we do...i was good cop bad cop in my reply, whereas Katie was completely good cop, and so we persuaded the coach company to

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-32174135153217156862009-11-11T07:25:00.000-08:002009-11-11T07:27:54.039-08:00

update: have data, but full of mistakes! great!second catechist lesson tonight - loved it last week22 november, taize service at St Mary the Virgin Primrose Hill - come if you can! (from 1pm - until about 5:30 - lunch, bible study, small groups and service that will be candle lit)Poznan Taize over new year - come if you can!nothing else new...

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-35449889270343367212009-11-06T08:55:00.000-08:002009-11-06T09:16:23.782-08:00

ok, some of my friends and myself are going through some tough patches at the moment...yeah, it is not so great, but i am hanging on in there and thinking about good things. Work the last two days has been a little disappointing - i feel I have lost a lot of motivation...and i am still waiting for data so I can actually start finding things out....this does not help, but a weird way of thinking

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-51048476484234902792009-11-01T13:27:00.000-08:002009-11-01T13:33:31.803-08:00

just a quick little update! The abstract I was talking about a few posts ago was accepted for the workshop! maybe by then it may be in more of a paper form, but for now it has gotton in...out of merit though I am not entirely sure, as the prof was on the accepting/rejecting committee...but never mind, my first professional abstract got me somewherein other news, had more nephew play today - he

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-21592642659109919702009-10-25T09:08:00.000-07:002009-10-25T09:17:52.774-07:00

I love my nephew dearly - he never fails to show us a new trick he has learnt...but I do not like the stomach bug that he passed on to me after baby sitting for him... not like is quite tame actually! Although today I am doing better then the previous two days - I can now eat a slice of bread and drink water...good stuff. Obviously am not going into work tomorrow, have let them know...luckily I

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-76631217111270377952009-10-21T08:20:00.000-07:002009-10-21T08:29:55.592-07:00

I am writing this at work, as I have a lose end, my office mates have gone to a conference in Lisbon, and I have just finished writing an abstract discussion topic for my prof (for those interested it is on the implementation of the 48 hour working week for junior doctors, and the consequences for the quality of working life)but, more importantly I am writing this I have something on my mind, and

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-4213538789638702912009-09-26T04:47:00.000-07:002009-09-26T04:51:18.186-07:00

for everyone who knows me, they also know that my babcia is the lady i aspire to be - she inspires me, has a faith that is so strong, and a love for people that is amazing...she is a fabulous lady, grandmother, mother, and great-grandmother!this week she turned 80! yep that is right - 80! a grand age! we gave her a surprise party on her actual evening...champers, flowers, chocolates, food...it

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-84548341293977172262009-09-11T13:48:00.000-07:002009-09-11T14:15:17.527-07:00

So last weekend was great...I had the pleasure of seeing James and Ella, and their two beautiful girls. I have not seen James and Ella for nearly two years...that is far too long...so much had happened in those two years - let alone James and Ella having a second child! and that was my reason for going to Hull, as I had been asked to be Joannes God-mum - this was an honour. It was just lovely -

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-74597829494844083722009-08-22T06:22:00.000-07:002009-08-22T06:37:09.926-07:00

the beginning of august sees our church trip to the Taizé community, Burgundy, France. This year was no different - apart from this year, I did a week in the field when my church was there, and when they had gone home, I did a week in silence.The week on the field was amazing...I had a lovely small group, the bible study was very well delivered (I was learning about the Farewell discourses) and

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-81912092930356011842009-06-03T01:58:00.000-07:002009-06-03T02:04:08.269-07:00

ok - it has been ages since I last wrote - i apologise, I have been busy.The Messiah went realy well - like really well...who needs failed pop-opera stars to sing for us....?!?!?!?! We raised ovber £2000 for Haris Hospice so that was awesome, and the music was just so enchanting and moving! Loved it - still find myself singing it at un-opportune moments.Easter was great - we had a really good

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-71689971350883542422009-03-14T15:27:00.001-07:002009-03-14T15:29:44.995-07:00

guys - not done this for a while, but I seem to have hit a real low. scared, anxious, tearful all the time. not sleeping greatly either. probably many things have triggered this, cannot put it down to one thing, or put a maximum on it either. please put a word in for me when you canps - mark will get Skype soon, I just need to get a new computer first.

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-37258779402257275612009-03-07T08:05:00.000-08:002009-03-07T08:34:12.523-08:00

It has been a long time since I last blogged - I have been doing a lot of thinking - a lot."Just as the day declines to evening, so often after some little pleasure my heart declines into depression. Everything seems dull, every action feels like a burden. If anyone speaks I scarcely listen. If anyone knocks, I scarcely hear. My heart is as hard as flint." (Saint Aelred of Rievaulx)I read

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-86750532749616620902009-01-29T11:06:00.000-08:002009-01-29T11:16:37.202-08:00

just where has January gone?well...it has involved the starting of the PhD...I have done lots of reading, anf quite (very sadly) enjoying being in a library again...it is hard reading....and I dont have an exact topic of focus yet, but that supposedly is ok according to my superviser who says to give it about 6 months! he had so much faith in me during our meeting it was quite scary...well this

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-86649514886502044992009-01-11T02:00:00.000-08:002009-01-11T02:01:24.153-08:00

********news flash update*********my little nephew is called Matthew

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-7390014394570489482009-01-10T08:55:00.000-08:002009-01-10T08:57:42.729-08:00

***************NEWS FLASH***************************I am an auntie!Congratulations to Peter and Davina and my little nephew (name still unknown). A hefty little 'un at 9 lbs and 3 oz.Cannot wait to see him, but that is my news......and it is getting warmer apparently!

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-1897871088401486752009-01-05T11:29:00.000-08:002009-01-05T11:43:19.434-08:00

Happy New Year everyone!I hope that yours has started a lot more healthily then mine....yes I was ill in December too - but Brussels did not do much for my health, and now I am on many an anti-biotic to make me better! so much so, I had to miss the first meeting with my PhD superviser - as both are agreed that it is much better for to be healthy!Well...why was I in Brussels - well for the Taizé

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-72079986006356104922008-12-17T01:34:00.000-08:002008-12-17T01:38:56.027-08:00

I have been struck down by the dreaded cold...on Monday I was in work for 40 minutes before I was sent home, yesterday I went in for the afternoon, and I am going in for mid-morning today. It is not very nice especially as this is my last few days at work now. have got some enrolment details for my PhD now, so it is real, it is happening.yesterday was a special night. i went to the Royal Mews

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-14526429714029073042008-12-07T11:17:00.000-08:002008-12-07T11:27:42.529-08:00

it has been a while since I have blogged and a lot has continued. I have officially given in my notice - horay! 12 more days of employment as I know it... I have been trying to get more info about my PhD and the uni I am going to be studying in - it is quite daunting to be starting out again...but it is something that I have been wanting to do for a while.I have been to see "Imagine This" at

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-52639075881335229762008-11-14T13:57:00.000-08:002008-11-14T14:02:59.876-08:00

Hi allI am a bit drunk when typing this - so sorry!Why you may ask...well yesterday was just a whirlwindas you may have gathered from my blog, there has been another job opportunity in the pipeline that would stop me from taking a bloody good salary that the internal job would give me! well yesterday this excitement was concluded...I was offered the PhD that I went for...what is that..a PhD...

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-91329632871617541422008-11-12T14:21:00.000-08:002008-11-12T14:24:21.740-08:00

Gott lass meine Gedanken sich sammein zu dir. Bei dir ist das Licht, du vergisst mich nicht. Bei dir ist die Hilfe, bei dir ist die Geduld. Ich verstehe deine Wege nict, aber du weisst den Weg fur mich(Taizé chant)Just beautiful, and kind of sums things up at the moment.share iteverything else wise, they advertised my job at work today - a kick in the teeth...but hey win some, lose some, life

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-78171433863652026332008-11-07T14:31:00.000-08:002008-11-07T14:42:10.417-08:00

It has been a stressful few weeks, which is why I have been silent. As people know, my work contract was not extended so I have been having to find a new job, and with the crisis that is going on at the moment, I was frightened about not getting a job.That worry kindof ended this week, when I found out I had been offered the internal job that I went for. having never really been through a

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-8152171842981804362008-10-18T13:47:00.000-07:002008-10-18T13:53:37.902-07:00

It has taken a while, but St James is now a Fairtrade church!http://www.stjamespettswood.org/it is good news....Had a Taizé reunion meal last night - was very much fun...talking about our planned trip to Taizé next year - will do two weeks again - am ready for the week in silence, and think it would be good to do...but am looking forward for Bro Paulo coming to London, but also Taizé in Brussels

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-84572147066168698872008-10-05T14:02:00.000-07:002008-10-05T14:11:06.974-07:00

its been a bit of a weird month:Housewise - Ewa moved out as her girlfriend came over from Poland and they are now living together - miss Ewa...but we gained a Daria, another Polish girl who is just as great. Sammy was kindof evicted....the boiler is broken - waiting for the gas man tomorrow, as we just want a little warmth in the house now. Since Sammy has left it has been a better house....

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-85764220592499235202008-09-07T13:40:00.001-07:002008-09-07T14:06:06.338-07:00

Today at church in the second reading, we had the phrase that often...and still does cause me a great deal of confusion, "Love your neighbour as you love yourself". Hard...why? well as many of you know, if you are regulat blog readers...I do not love myself. In fact there are many things that I despise about myself. Now, does that mean that I cannot love others? In my opinion no. I can love

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-3308700144530407842008-08-25T11:27:00.000-07:002008-08-25T11:50:52.721-07:00

Ok, it has been a while since I last blogged...reason being Taizé.This year, I went for two weeks, easily could have stayed for longer, but got so much out of the two weeks it was immense. Now, a lot has happened to me in the last year, a lot happened to me in the few weeks before going, so I had a lot of food for thought. This year, I went seperately from my group on the coach, but met with

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-12583429358305709022008-08-01T14:22:00.000-07:002008-08-01T14:36:46.398-07:00

it has been a weird few weeks for sure. The same week after I had a break-up, on that Friday I found out that even though I had received the very rarely given exceeded rating in my appraisal, I was then told that my contract was not going to get extended. Gutted. I had previously been talking to my old boss Steve about all of my options, and he said he would be truly gutted of they didnt keep

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-24729622531694100332008-07-14T14:23:00.000-07:002008-07-14T14:33:02.609-07:00

It has been a while since I have done it..but yesterday I did it again - I cried in church - not just a little tear - but big full on snotty crying! not intentionally, but a lot of anger and upset came to a boil late saturday night/early sunday morning. for probably the first time in a my life I stood up to a man that was not treating me so well, and although i felt crappy yesterday, i have so

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-4649220534387196082008-07-07T11:20:00.000-07:002008-07-07T11:30:03.965-07:00

It has been a while since I have written - and the main is I have been settling into my house, and unpacking, and waiting for the landlord to fix the internet...that has now all been done, and so here I am!Loving my new house - it has been two weeks now, the four of us get on very well, and it is just great. this weekend i tackled the jungle of our garden, and that is also looking a lot better.

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-75949458577530236002008-06-24T12:50:00.000-07:002008-06-24T13:02:56.326-07:00

wohoo! I have moved house! I am sharing a house with two other girls...we all moved into the empty on Saturday, and have been getting to know each other..the house is cool - i have a huge room, into which i am still unpacking, but I am getting there slowly.the lsrc conference also went really well - like amazingly well. I was given a huge clap with flowers and chocolates at the end after all my

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Its the LSRC conference these next few days, and so these last two days have been manic! I had to deal with broken down printers...stressed bosses, and deadlines...but all has been done! I will be "Reaching Further: New Approaches to the Delivery of Legal Services" for three days....Greenwich is good! And I was called a great big bright star by my old boss...which is brilliant...it made my day

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-76740932145603970702008-06-12T13:42:00.001-07:002008-06-12T13:44:11.287-07:00

and a little extra - we raised another £170 for Bromley Alzheimers Care on Sunday for singing at the residents association - this made me happy...I love to sing, and raising money for such a good cause as well - its just good.

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-37579666921422566652008-06-12T13:27:00.000-07:002008-06-12T13:38:47.072-07:00

I have had a happy sad week this week. I don't really want to speak about the sad, but the happy happened today - I have signed a contract to move into a house-share next weekend. This is a good move for me, as I have been becoming more miserable at home, and will give me the opportunity to meet new people as well. and for the first time ever in my life I will have a double bed - and I am very

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-4474229250632107772008-06-08T12:06:00.000-07:002008-06-08T12:15:39.748-07:00

work....something I do usually between 9:30-6:30 monday to friday...not this week. I have worked gone 7 most days, on friday I was in the office until 8, and I worked for 7 hours yesterday - yes on a Saturday...it is just wrong, and I do not get paid enough to do it, but hey ho, it has to be done.Today, I was singing which is something that many people know I love to do...I was singing for the

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-50964169600037507222008-06-05T13:44:00.000-07:002008-06-05T13:52:14.059-07:00

this week my average time of leaving the office, I guess would be 7...I am not enjoying my 9 hours in the office - i have some very tight deadlines for the conference that I am organising, but hey...hopefully it will all be worth it...this time in two weeks we will be at the conference banquet.today i have also re-started my running. last year i was beginning to be able to do some good distances

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-59263421631417541472008-05-26T03:16:00.000-07:002008-05-26T03:21:25.596-07:00

i am currently suffering from a little bit of insomnia which is not very good - it is making me tired and tearful, and i don't like it, and would rather wish it would go away so that I could actually get one night of decent sleep. Life is hard at the moment - my mood seems to be the lowest it has been for a long time, I am teary, and just have no energy to do the simplest of tasks, which is just

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-27580873563420477382008-05-17T13:48:00.000-07:002008-05-17T14:05:19.894-07:00

well, work got me very stressed this week - so stressed in fact that I have been averaging about 3 hours a sleep a night, and am losing my appetite. On one day this week, I survived a day on a carrot, a stick of celery and chunk of cucumber and a slice of bread...not the best I know. My mood is dropping at a great rate. Nigel noticed, and so he invited me to Cambridge this weekend...I went up

zosiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15092471254990751955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6152130.post-20008414532312107862008-05-13T13:53:00.000-07:002008-05-13T13:56:15.074-07:00

short postHave been very tired...work has been super stressful, just so much to do, it seems never ending...also, have been doing loads of reading...flat hunting....sorting out my finances....church stuff.just been having a lot of stuff to do, have been stressed, and having stress reactions, but all is improving!and good weather too!take care, hope your weeks are going well

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